Thursday, October 9, 2008.
Written with ♥ @ 8:36 PM.
I said i was going to start work but i have yet to.gnna start aft 10pm, thats my studying period."Come'on i can do it" is what i've been telling myself but i doubt i can.Peer pressure.How i wish i'm smart, more hardworking, more self-discipline.Sigh but i can't help being so stupid.
Anyway i've been thinking alot, idk why.Recalled those conflicts amg clique that time, but things are fine now.At that point of time things are chaotic and horrible, being backstabbed and all.Friends.I don't need many friends, one or two can be enough as long as they're true.Somehow i've yet to find them.I know i shouldn't doubt my friends but experiences proved otherwise.I know its okay for people to gossip cos i do too(i mean who doesnt), i bet everybody are bound to speak ill of people cos the world is dominated by us, homosapiens.But don't go overboard.
After being thru so much, i've learned my lessons.I realised.Having my own priciples is indeed a good sign cos i'd know how to differentiate what is right and what is wrong and what i should do and what i shouldn't.It also set as a reflection for myself.Its like the feeling after gossiping abt a friend, i'd feel quite bad but sometimes its because some things are not meant to be said.Sigh nvrm.
& I realised that when O's are nearing, people are getting more selfish and self-centred.This is life, this is a human personality i would say.I know that everybody wants to do well, who doesn't? But this ain't th way right? Scheming.
