Monday, January 12, 2009.
Written with ♥ @ 9:26 PM.
Mood: Morose
O's results are disappointing. I thought i could get a L1R5 of 11 or 12 for raw score but i ended up with sth else that i would not expect in my entire life.
For those who asked, I did really badly fullstop. I cannot bring myself to accept the fact that the first grade i saw was a C5 for English when during school exams/tests i fared like any average student - B3(or better at times). Furthermore, majority of the cohord scored distinctions. In general, everything else came as a huge blow to me. I'm still feeling very lousy currently despite many comforts(thank you!) but oh well i can't change anything nor blame anyone(but myself).
I'm upset because I lost to many(who usually did much worse than me) but most importantly, I lost to myself(BIG TIME). As for now, I don't really care if i end up in JJC, PJC or NgeeAnnPoly. I know its not the end of the world but sometimes its easier said than done. And yeah i know no point crying over split milk, its over think about the future, O's results are nothing, there are still many people out there who are doing well despite their poor results in secondary schools. Yes i know but its just hard for me not to feel upset and let it go just like that.
Oh wellllll. On another note, my parents are kind of against me going to a JC(due to my poor results) cos as long as i can't make it into SAJC/AJC/CJC, they felt that i should go to a poly. Okay thats my mentality before the release of the results but yeah its a totally different scenario currently. However, they still leave everything up to me so yah. Its hard knowing that I've to make a decision(a tough one in fact) sigh.
Mood-less to do anything right now. Am still considering if i should start reading the dictionary everyday and yeah this reminded me that i've yet to fulfill my point 7 of my NewYear's resoultions. OH and congrats to all those who did well, I am happy for the rest of you!
